After Easter; First day of holidays; feeling sick and yucky

Pretty much this has been a pretty sucky way to start off my spring break. The weather is crap, not nice and balmy like it would have been if i were back in Sydney (pretty much just been missing sydney heaps ever since my holiday). I've just spent the time that i've been back from Sydney working heaps. Feeling suprisingly drained, i reckoned its not the work that gets to me but rather the time it takes for me to actually drive to work and back; its not a long drive, its just that i keep getting stuck in traffic =(. Anyways been pretty crappy company lately, not really been headed out and partying like i told myself i would when i decided to move to melbourne. just wanna hibernate at home really, but i reckon i'll snap back soon... i'm like a rubber band. But despite all that, still found time to meet up with some new friends for coffee and meals.

An interesting thing happened at work the other day, this Singaporean lady that visited the store told me that my company had a pretty racist hiring policy and that they didnt really hire any Asians. I don't really believed that for one second, but it did make me feel pretty much like an outsider. I mean there are Asians who work at GP's but they're all born here in Australia, its pretty much only me, the one and only Singaporean working there. I kinda felt pretty singled out after that, made me realise that no matter how hard i tried, i'd never fit in. Although everyone in the store is making me feel very welcomed, there is still a part of me that knows that i'll never fully be able to integrate with all of them. At the end of the day, i have only 4yrs in Australia whilst most of them have spent their whole life in Oz. But at least i'm trying right... I don't believe that I'm just filling their EEO requirements (Equal Employment Opportunity) but rather they're a merit-based organisation. I think she might have been a little bit sore because her son had previously applied for a job there but didnt get it... but well thats just my opinion
At the end of the day, its all about the money and i gotta keep reminding myself of that.

I think i'm going through winter depression... heh